Itz 8.30 here evening here almost getting dark….hot coffee mug in my hands… Nd here I am gazing out in the darkness through my balcony, I could feel the hot steam and strong aroma of coffee which is actually curing my lonely feeling this winter evening
I can hear zooming of vehicles honking of rickshaws and kids shouting for a 6 in cricket. In all these noisy surrounding I could only hear is that my inner soul shouting for some care love and some attention.
Here in darkness there blinks a light in my phone for a moment, I thought it maybe Ray of hope which came out from my heart saying ‘not to cry alone I am there with you’ I replied to the temporary blinks of my cell phone. Itz rightly saids thunders blinks only for a moment but it can provide you the way to next step in that moment.
Deep struggle going inside my brains my heart deeply bleeding in Sadness or can say loneliness. I look back… Few years back there I find my answers…. In this selfish world and busy bee clans I have been self centered.
We r always confused between our brains and heart this confusion had thought me to lie, steal and to hide.
Yes… I lie to myself that I am the most happiest person ever seen, there is a frown person hidden behind my curving smile….. I lie to world.
I steal others moments to be one among them….
I have learned to hide my emotions.
Sometimes we feel like we want to disappear but all we really want is to be found
Now back to reality, I am still waiting for blinks of hopes In my inbox, with a coffee cup in my hands and loads of creativeness blooming in my head.
Now I crave for being alone because it taught me life I didn’t get hurt,i cud stay true…. And then I think I was designed to be alone.
#Like to be alone, hate being lonely#